Friday, September 30, 2011

Day 66

Confucius is obsessed with me.

I got a text from Mike D last night! He got a job a Margaritaville too!!! He is following Allie and I to the promise land. The promise to make more money land. Now if that is not true love, I don't know what is, unless he is in love with Allie, which is highly possible. Either way is cool with me, we will all have fun regardless. Ok, I gotta go buy some more Triskets to replace the ones I ate and then I am gonna make me and Max some breakfast, I can't decide on Rice Crispies or Raisin Brand Crunch.....either way Max will be very impressed...

Thursday, September 29, 2011

Day 65 just worked 12 hours

Bout to go to bed, Max came over after work, we both worked a double today and we both have to work a double tomorrow and now we are hanging out at Kelly's, he just got done watering the cat out of the faucet, actually him and Confucious are hanging out, I just asked him if he has a quote to say, he said, "Don't take life to seriously or you'll never get out of it out alive", that is his words. Max has spoken. I am going to bed and he is sleeping on the couch.

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

day 64, state of confusion

I am so confused! Alicia linked me together on Facebook with one of her friends whose lives in Nashville, who happens to be in construction. She wanted us to meet over facebook and so we did, and he told me he wanted to meet me for lunch to talk about his connections he has in the industry. So the picture of Alicia's friend Kyle who she linked me to is Oriental and I am expecting an Oriental guy named Kyle to walk through the door, so I motioned to the hostess that it wasn't him as this White guy is heading in my direction. Well it turns out it was him. I have no idea who the Oriental guy in the picture was. I didn't say anything to him, I just sat there confused for awhile. We ended up having a nice lunch and he gave me a number of someone who maybe hiring. We shall see.

This damn cat at Kelly's keeps jumping on me, I thought I made it perfectly clear to Confucius there is no touching me. I guess he is grateful for me saving his life. This dog was barking like a maniac outside earlier, so I opened the door to see what the heck was going on. Um it was a very large female Pitt Bull cornering the cat on the front porch. HOLY CRAP!! The cat is hissing and was able to open the door just enough for the cat to come in and I slammed it before the dog bum rushed the door and had us both for lunch.

 I am now sitting on the couch typing and mosquito just landed on my arm and bit me, this is a very strange day. I topped it off with 2 episodes of Dexter. I must now get ready for work, can't wait to see what strange occurrences await my arrival.

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

day 63 up up and up and coming

I just looked in the mirror and my two front teeth are gaping!! OH NO! In the past, I have had guys tell me that they like the gap in my teeth and I am like "what gap?!" I got that taken care of in high school but I just noticed that they are separating! Hey Mom, its time to go back to the orthodontist!

anyway, I went on another interview today, with the guy I met at the bar, who happens to be the General Manager at Servpro, a restoration company, the same guy I told I tried to drown someone, well ooops, my networking skills could use some work, but somehow I managed to land an interview. We had lunch and I am exactly what he is looking for (Customer Relations Manager), BUT I may have scared him off by throwing out my salary expectations. I say shoot for the stars and let them cantor...or laugh in my face which ever comes first. We shall see. And now I am meeting with one of Alicia's friends tomorrow who is in construction as well. That will make 3 interviews with friends of friends of friends for the week, how is that for networking??? I like it.

This morning I was having coffee with Brandy as I was putting on my make-up and mention to her what my Iraqi Pizza guy said at work :"Stephanie, you should really spend some more money and time on your hair"

HA! brandy started laughing and said, "how did that not make the blog??"

Well, I guess the Iraqi Pizza guy is really really honest or just getting back at me for calling him a terrorist.

Also, last night Brandy and I decided we needed to pay attention to the RED FLAGS that guys throw in our faces, and not just shew them away or go around them....so many guys in their own way say RED FLAG and we chose to ignore it and then achknowledge them in hindsight. oh well. The next guy who tells me he is crazy I will take it as a red flag and probably still ignore it.

Ok Allie is about to come over and we are gonna discuss a whole lot of nothing while watching Aimee's dogs and cats.

Monday, September 26, 2011

Still day 62 still catching up

I am enjoying a few moments of solitude while Brandy and the kids are a football practice. I had an interview today at a place called M-TEK. Its a automotive plant that produces the plastic injections for cars, Nissans mostly. Its HUGE and is in Manchester and according to Brandy, they practically employ the whole town. I was not sure what the job entailed going into the interview, but gave my resume to Joey, Brandy's ex-husbands brother and he passed it around, they called me Friday to come into today.The interview went well, but is an admin position and he said I have the qualities that they are looking for, but not the experience and it would really help if I knew some Japanese. Um ok, sorry I will go grab Rosetta Stone on the way home and brush up on my ching chang chung (I actually wouldn't mind knowing what those nail girls are saying about me when I get a pedicure).  He said if this job doesn't pan out then there may be another one on down the line. We shall see.

I am indifferent, I wouldn't mind getting my career started again, but that make take some time and in the meatime, I am okay serving the people of Nashville until that opportunity presents itself. I like the country and I am liking the city the more time I spend in it. I like Manchester but it seems a little limiting as far as the life want to lead. If I had a husband and kids, the country would be a no brainer, I always said I will live wherever I get a job so who knows.

Nashville is an exiting place to be, with tons of stuff I have yet to explore. My friend Kelly and I went out Saturday night downtown, we had a blast! Started off at a chili cook-off with some of my work peeps, then went downtown to listen to some country music and then went and ate BBQ at Rippeys. When we left Rippys the Predator game got out and all of sudden we found ourselves in a sea of people, they were everywhere, so we packed it in and went back to Kellys. She has an awesome house with a deck, complete with fire pit, so we hung out there and my friend Max came over. We all had a great time sitting out on the patio just talking and laughing. The next morning I got up and Kelly introduced me to Dexter, she just started Season 1 and since my family has been trying to get me to watch it forever, I decided to give it a whirl. I love it!!! I got sucked in and watched 4 episodes while Kelly cooked us Ribeye before I went to work. Not a bad way to spend my Sunday. I love the fact that all the places that I "stay" at are hosted by people who love to cook...awesome.

I have been working non-stop, which is fine, I don't mind doing what I am doing right now, sure living out of my trunk can get old, but I am having enough fun to compensate for a little instability. I worked last night while watching the Steelers game, I catch so much hell for supporting a "rapist" QB. whatever, alleged rapist I always say and I don't support Ben's actions just the fact he and the Steelers win football games is all I care about.

I was talking to this couple at one of my tables last night, they were a fun, so I pulled a chair up and started talking to them, Mike D comes up wondering what I am doing, so he sits down next to me and I introduce him, it was pretty funny. A little later, this couple points out the fact they are certain the Mike D likes me, I am intrigued by this observation. I asked how they know and they said they could tell by his body language and the way he talks to me, hhhhhhhhhhhhmmmmmmm maybe I am wearing him down, buy being a complete nut job at work. I have let down my guard and starting doing and saying anything I want at work, and most of the time it involves doing a little jig and/or the running man. Mike D said I was the whitest girl he ever met and I was offended, I don't know if it was my dance moves or the fact that I am NOW the whitest girl he has ever met.... literally.

Kendra is so hard on me everyday, I think its funny, I just give it right back to her, I asked her "Are you hard on because you see so much potential in me and you know I can do better and you want me to shine?" and she just rolled her eyes and said I am watching you! :)

I came home late last night and Dug was here, Brandy had put him to work all day, he installed the wood burning stove she just bought to heat her office, its pretty awesome actually. Ok well, my moments of solitude are ticking so I must go watch some crap TV, I am off of work tomorrow, so I will continue to talk more about all of my hopes and dreams then.

Day 62 make-up blog

I know I have missed 2 days, but I have been working like a dog....and I will write later today....right now I have to do something pretty important and I don't want to jinx it....so I will fill everyone in on the happenings in a couple 3-4 hours

Friday, September 23, 2011

day 61 crazy town

I just got home from a long 12 hour day. I just met this dude, who happens to be in the same industry as me, he was like 6' 6" and hilarious. fate? maybe. me and Mike D had great day together...we are just friends so I am just silly stephanie around him. Stayed at Brandys Wed. Kellys Thursday, and at Aimee's tonight.  freakin Nomad to the 3rd degree. Thats all I got, I can't think straight...will talk more tomorrow..I am a zombie.

I just realized that I told that guy that I tried to drown someone once, flew to Vegas on a whim, that I am a nomad and I like the Steelers....hhhhmmm I really need to work on putting a better spin on my game...I am sure he will call...

Thursday, September 22, 2011

day 60 laundry fiasco

Today was a good long day at work, so this will be short blog as I just worked 11 hours.
Yesterday, I told Brandy that I want to be in charge of laundry cause I knows she despises is and she has ALOT with the 2 boys, her and me. She told me no. Because when I first got here, I did all of the household laundry while she was gone one day. Since then, she has not been able to find anything and yesterday she was cleaning out the boys closets. She thought that Jacob had a closet full of pants so she didn't buy him any this year, but it turns out that all the pants in Jacobs closet were in fact Masons (due to me putting all the clothes away) and therefore he has no pants and now has to go shopping. oopsy, sorry girl they all started looking the same I guess...

so no laundry duty for me.

I am now at my friend Kelly's house, another location I am adding to my nomad crash spots. Its a great house in Nashville that I can crash at...so I am just writing a quick blog today because I am about to fall asleep...more tomorrow..I hope, I have another double tomorrow.

Going to buy Jason Aldean/ Luke Bryan tix in the morning! woo hoo! these are the two CD's that Brandy happened to just buy and let me borrow and I LOVE them both so I am super excited!

night night

Wednesday, September 21, 2011

Day 59 moving on up! beans don't burn in the kitchen

I just watched my very first Survivor episode ever! I don't know why I have never watched it, I just accepted the fact that I missed the boat on it, but Brandy lured me in and I have officially jumped on the bandwagon. I can finally be apart of the Survivor convo's that I have been left out of for last 17 or so seasons yay.

Oh and I decided to follow my friend Allie's lead and try to get a job at Margaritaville because word on the street is they make way more than I am making now and have a live band every night...uh duh...sign me up! and guess what? they did! ha, they hired me on the spot! ding ding ding jackpot! Its right in the heart of the honky tonk strip on Broadway and I get to wear jeans (the shirts are a bit gay but I am not complaining)
The best part about it is that they will work the training around my other job so I won't lose any money while training and they will slowly work me into the schedule so I can give a proper 2 weeks notice after I train. So I guess I will just work all the time, but its not like I have anything else to do. Make money make money money money!
I celebrated my new job by going to Tootsies and enjoying some country tunes before hitting the road back to Manchester.

Oh wait, I won the pickem this week! I play in the weekly football picks with the guys at work and this week I won! I beat out this guy with the tie breaker, I guessed the total amount of points of the Monday Night Football game.....I don't think its cheating if I copied most of my decisions from the sports page picks...is it? Its just research.

Tuesday, September 20, 2011

day 58 white girl

Yesterday I had defining moment in my life. Brandy and I had our first fight since I have been here (it lasted for about 5 minutes). Dug was here and the neighbor Mike was here , I walked out into the sun room where everyone was and Brandy called me out, "did you put your make-up on in the dark? Its looking a little thick Magda." (Magda is the extremely tan old woman from the movie "Something about Mary" So I got embarrassed, walked back in the house and slammed the door behind me. I then proceeded to pout (mind you I am very very hormonal at this point and very tired from the last few days) So Brandy came in and I called her an asshole and she told me I was being ridiculous and I agreed and that was it.

 I then went back out to the sun room and we all joked about the fact that my make-up does not match my face at all, to prove her point, Brandy asked me to wipe my face off with a paper towel and then I saw what she was talking about, the paper towel was completely orange and it turns out, my skin is not. Then I found myself in the middle of yet another intervention, they told me to embrace the fact that my skin is white and I am not a Native American, so stop trying to pretend that I am.

I am going to Wal-Mart to buy some groceries for Brandy, I announce that while I am at there I will buy some new make-up. So that was the defining moment, I have embarrassed the fact that I am a white girl and need to start act accordingly, and I will not buy foundation that is Buff Beige but something more along the line of Ghost White. And that is exactly what I did and I am a better person for it.

Monday, September 19, 2011

Day 57...the shirt

Ok I have gotten some heat about not mentioning a certain article of clothing that completely made my night Saturday, the only reason I didn't is because I promised my mom I would stop using the "W" word.....and I would leave this subject alone....BUT technically I am not using the "W" word in the first person as I recieved a gift from my good friend, Meredith Seelos, when we all met out in Atlanta for dinner....

Meredith made me a shirt that says "My Cousin is a Whore" on the front in black letters. And yes, I did wear this shirt during dinner out in public. Its not everyday you get to display terms of UN-endearment and I would be lying if I didn't say......it was freakin awesome.  My funny funny peeps got my back and that is all I can ask for....I swear I am not bitter anymore and this shirt is hilarious. Thanks girls for making me laugh!!!!

(sorry mom and dad, that will be the last time I mention it, unless someone comes up with a bumper sticker that will go nicely on the back bumper of the Camry)

Sunday, September 18, 2011

day 56

My surprise visit to Atlanta was fun, but now I am exhausted and not at all looking forward to getting back in the car and driving another hour just so I can work all night.

I stopped by Hudson Grille and visited with Lindsay Wilson Miller and her lovely husband Jessie yesterday while watching the Dawgs stomp on some poor unsuspecting team. So that was fun to see her and catch up. Then went to Patti's as I knew she was having people over for the TN/FLA game and totally surprised everyone, I told them I had to work and couldn't make it and the entire crew was there! Then proceeded to have a girls night out in the Highlands after the game. It was fun fun fun!

This morning I woke up, went and had breakfast with one of my very favorite people, Sarah. And she recruited another fav, Stuart and his little guy, Harrison, and that was a pleasant surprise. Stu made me promise that I wouldn't stop writing this blog until I get married, I am pretty sure that was his sneaky way of making sure that I will be writing forever because I am never getting married :) hhhhmmmm I am fully prepared to get married one day, I am just waiting on Mr. Right and sweep my off my feet....or maybe Mr. Soso, to tip me over, which ever comes first.

 I had a couple of demands/requests from the girls about my blog, 1. Change the color of the background to avoid being busted reading it at work 2. Start using titles of each day and not just Day 25, Day 34....ok I will work on both of those items tomorrow, right now I gotta go wash my stupid work shirt, one day soon I am going to buy more that one shirt so I won't have to keep on washing the same one over and over again.

Saturday, September 17, 2011

Day 55

Yesterday at work was I pulled a classic spaswell. This girl Kathleen, has been there for 5 years and doesn't accept new people well, so we are just now starting to talk. She asks me if I want a milkshake from Jack n the Box, I say no, then she says that they are the best and you must have one, and it must be cookies n cream, I am still reluctant but decide to give in and say "ok, if thats what the cool kid are doing then I will have one but not cookies and cream, maybe just chocolate" she says no you must have cookies and cream, I say "NO, but wait... do they have oreo???".....THAT IS COOKIES AND CREAM!! she yells. So now she is laughing and telling everyone about the the cookies and cream/oreo fiasco. It goes like this: 'This milkshake sucks, I asked for cookies n cream and I got Oreo'...HAHAHOHOHO. OK GOT IT :)

This joke goes on and on through out the day and the damn thing wasn't even that good.

I hung out with Mike D and Allie after work, she set it up for us to meet at Rebar after work, she would stay for awhile, then slip out and let us get to know each other, she is such a good wingman. He gets there and she stays for about 30 minutes and leaves. We talk about football, he is a huge Pats fan, and we talk about how much we hate each others teams and how we need to find better jobs where we make more money (more on that later) and then shortly after he needs to go, so we hung out for about 30 glorious minutes. It was fun to hang out with him while it lasted, this will not go past a friendship (seeing as I got a fist bump when we said our good-byes) which is totally cool, I can't date a grown-ass-man who sags his pants like Snoop Dogg.

Thursday, September 15, 2011

Day 54

Just got done working a double. It was slow during the day, but I met my first famous person! Heidi Newfield, she is a country singer and used to be in the band Trick Pony (she sang Johnny and June) I didn't know she was famous when I first started waiting on her and what I am assuming is her manager, Don. I just started talking to them and was making them laugh. I told her I loved her look and the fact that she was sipping on Crown Royal neat along with a beer while she eating her chicken sandwich gave her an edge. I overheard them talking about music and such so I started doing research on "Heidi" I googled Heidi Nashville Concert pics to see if I could find out who she was and it worked! So I went up to the table to give them the check and asked her when I would see her on stage again like I knew who she was the entire time. She said, soon girl soon, thats what we were just talking about and to just keep checking her website. I told her I would love to see her up on that stage again..hehe. The check was $50 and her manager gave me $100 bill and told me to keep the change...um ok thanks... from your biggest fan!

So that was the highlight of my day, I am all kinds of tired and I know there is something I am forgetting but I can't think straight after my 12 hour day.

All I can say is that I am very happy I moved up here, I really love it! The people make the city and I am excited to keep on my journey of making a sweet little life in Tennessee.

Wednesday, September 14, 2011

Day 53

So I stayed at Aimee's last night, and she prefers if I leave my door open so the cats and dogs can go and come as they please and her room is next to mine with her door open. I woke up in the middle of night and had to go to bathroom, its pitch black, I don't want to turn on any lights so I won't wake her up and even if I wanted to turn a light on, I couldn't find it. I am all drugged up on my sleeping pills and get up to feel for the door, it takes a few minutes (picture me feeling around in the dark while doing the pee pee dance) finally open up a door, to the closet, dangit! Move a few feet over to the right and open the correct door, I am not sure why I didn't just turn the light on after I shut the bathroom door, but again, I am drugged up, I manage to feel my way to the toilet, I can't find the toilet paper in the dark, so I just take off my boxers and use them. I feel my way back to the bed (don't worry, I didn't put my boxers back on) and go back to sleep, operation blackout bathroom complete.

I wake up and realize what I have done, just shake my head and head down stairs for homemade french toast and coffee. I had a good day at work, until I realize that I am missing half of my tips, I have no idea where this money went, I guess I dropped it, awesome, I basically just did some volunteer work. Its ok I have way too much money as it is.

I saw my friend Gary Schelton today at work, he is an old school friend from the Decatur crew, he moved to Nashville a few years ago, so it was a nice surprise to see him. We got to catch up, he asked me where I was living, I tried to explain that I live in Manchester and stay at random people's houses and he just looks at me and asked "you live out of your car don't you?" um well, ya know, my nomad tendencies are alive and kicking. Then I asked him when he was inviting me over for dinner and he asked "are you looking for your next meal?" um well, sorta, a girls gotta eat.

Brandy took me and the boys out for dinner with her ex-brother-in-law, Joey, and his wife so she could catch up and I could get some facetime. I had met Joey a couple of years ago and he remembered me by the rice-roni story that Brandy likes to tell people (a story for another time). His company is hiring and I just happen to have a resume that he needed to see. I am grateful for any opportunity to network, so that was nice of her, thanks girl.

My friend Justin at work burned his own nose with his own cigarette. I am still confused on the details of how this happened, the end of his nose looks like Rudolph, just wanted to fit that story in somehow.

Well that's I all I got for today....

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

day 52

I had a great day today, well it started off by me stepping on Kilo again, I really wish he wouldn't wrap up in blankets on the floor, (sorry kilo) and then I had to dump my entire purse out because my entire supply of biotin escaped the bottle somehow and placed themselves on the bottom of my purse to be crushed by 1000's of pounds of junk I store on a daily basis. But after that, it was a great day, sun shining, work was busy enough to keep me going for 12 solid hours. I had a party of 15 at the end of the night, so I did a little jig in the kitchen singing "I got a party I got a party" and my boss replied with "Don't F it up don't F it up" ha its much funnier with the sound effects. I didn't, I was perfect and it paid off, yay me. So nothing more to report just cause i am exhausted. good night!

Monday, September 12, 2011

Day 51

Today I went to see if I needed to rotate my tires, I had them rotated 2 months ago, they said I was probably good, then they checked my records, um I have driven 6000 miles in 2 months!! so yes, they rotated my tires.

Then, I went on a  POF date, at 4pm ,geriatric style :) He is an IT guy for the military, some kinda Black Ops High Security Clearance crap that he "couldn't talk about."  Long story short, he said he doesn't like people, that he is not a people person, he didn't ask me hardly any questions, just talked about himself, was monotone, seemed to be completely negative. so bye! see ya, wouldn't wanna be ya.

Speaking of negative, I have had a few people reach out to me about the fact that I have been so negative about my cousin, I am sorry, but I needed a week to go through all the emotions that I needed to go through, I won't bore you with the fact that I cried almost everyday, that I was sad when things would happen during the day that I normally would text her about and couldn't, but I am truly over it, I have blocked her from this blog and I have moved on and I am ok. So Thanks for all of your support, I am no longer bitter, I am good, and life is good!

When I was out the other night, this guy asked me what I did for a living and I said I was an aspiring bartender. hahahaha. That was my way of changing the subject :)

When I was at work the other day doing a whole lotta nothing, I let my work girlfriends in on the fact that I have a baby crush on Mike D, they all gave me the thumbs up to pursue it. This one girl let me in on some things that he loves, two of them are M &M's and diet coke. She also has let me in his fav band, who by the way, I have never heard of and by the way, I will be learning at least one song and will be whistling it as he walks by, while eating M&M's, sipping on diet coke and just watch him fall in love.... ha its gonna be great!
 :) Friday is the day I work with him next, so stay tuned as I plan, plot and pounce......

Sunday, September 11, 2011

Day 50! 9/11/11 Ten years later....

WOW. Its been 10 whole years, where does the time go? I have been watching coverage all morning and I haven't stopped tearing up. They have been having a moment of silence during each incident. I just watched the recap of the plane that was taken down by its passengers in the "field of honor" in Pennsylvania. That story is unreal. That day really happened and we will never forget. And we will never forget where we were at the time we heard that a plane had just crashed into the World Trade Center.

I myself was in court for a DUI, so that was weird. I remember, my lawyer's assistant coming up to him and saying, a plane just crashed into a building in New york, and we thought it was just an accident. But the judge dismissed us and I got home in time to see the 2nd plane hit the towers.

Later that day I had a job interview. That was a little uncomfortable too. I really had no idea what to do, do I go? Do I cancel? Will they cancel? So I just went, and it was at an Editing Company, they edited movies and such, so they had every TV on the coverage. I was actually escorted through the parking lot by security as everyone was uncertain about what was going on. The lady proceeded with the interview, we were both distracted and it didn't flow as it should and long story short, I didn't get the job. Weird.

So that day was a bit unusual. Today is going to be crazy, the first Sunday for football, so I would imagine that its going to be EXTREMELY patriotic, so I am looking forward to the pre-game and half times shows. The Steelers play Baltimore at 1pm! Very exciting! I became a fan when I started dating Gary, so this is my 7th year of being a fan, I love the Steelers, just because G and I are not together doesn't mean I have to stop being a fan. I am an invested fan for them and for the Falcons too of course. Regardless, its gonna to be an emotional day.

Yesterday was interesting, I worked a double so that is why I didn't blog, I had nothing to give when I go home. During the day it was so slow, so me and my co-workers just sat around and talked and laughed all day, it was actually pretty fun. I was talking and then this girl Allie started writing something down, I asked her what she was doing, she said, I am going to start writing down the things you say, they are freaking hilarious. Ha, um ok, well knock yourself out girl. And then this other girl named Kenzie started laughing when I was walking, I was like what are you laughing at? she said, "I just caught a glimpse of you walking with your tray and it was as if you just realized where you were halfway down the aisle, like your face just tuned in with the world."  Ha, I guess my fellow co-workers are starting to tune in with the day to day ways of Spazwell.

Ok, I am gonna go back to watching more sad stuff. Rudy Giuliani is on and I will never forget him leading us through that horrific time.

GOD BLESS AMERICA

Friday, September 9, 2011

Day 49

Omy gosh, one of the dogs that I was dog sitting all last weekend, who I wall calling Graciesadie because I didn't know which dog was Gracie and which dog was Sadie, well I stayed at Aimee's last night and it turns out that the dogs name is Lucy. ooopsy...only if dogs could talk, "Hey dumbass, stop making up names! Seriously stop calling me Sadiebracie, I am only letting you beleive that that's my name because I really want that treat in your hand"



Dangit! just minutes ago, I was chuckling at myself for making up names, and in a splendid mood, and instantly I am sick to my stomach. I am at Aimee's house we are both on our laptops and she wanted to look at my cousins photo on FB so she can put a face with the name, so she looks her up and her page is not on private, so you can still see everything on her wall, Aimee said , it looks likes she is in Chattanooga.(Chattanooga is 30 minutes from Randy and it is where I met him) Hey asshole, if you are reading this, put your page on private, no one cares that you are in Chattanooga, you should be ashamed of yourself! whore.


Ok, I am gonna try and pretend the last 10 minutes didn't happen and go back to being splendid. I gotta get ready for work, today is going be a great day!!!!!! Thank you Lord Amen!

no whammies no whammies!

Thursday, September 8, 2011

day 48

Ok I woke up sad and realized that its gonna take a minute for me to get over losing my cousin. As much as I don't want to spend one more second thinking about it, I can't help my feelings and I have to let myself go through all the emotions that go hand in hand with being screwed over.

So this blog is gonna be about distractions:

I got to work, thank goodness I have that as a distraction. The people there make me laugh and that is awesome. I donated money to a charity, this girl at work is collecting money for the homeless so I gave $3...I guess I have a soft spot in my heart and a small connection to the homeless :) Lets face it,being a nomad is a person who has wonderful friends with homeless tendancies. If I didn't have such wonderful people in my life, I in fact would be homeless, so I donated $3 to the cause. hahaha.

Then I signed up for a football pool for this week, I spent $5 on this and got Gary's help on my picks..so I could win a pot full of money...football...an awesome distraction...I am ready for some football!

My friend Mike D is becoming a distraction (the guy I gave my 2 cents to), he cracks me up, he is from Maine and has a thick Good Will Hunting accent and sags his pants and I just found out he is 30, so we are in the same age group with a few things in common, except for the fact that he is a Pats fan.

My friend Allie, is making me go out tomorrow night, I went over to her house so I could borrow at dress and heels, yep she is making me dress like a girl. I tried on the outfit she picked out for me and she insists I look amazing, but I am pretty sure I look like a hoochie, but I am gonna be a good sport. She is making me where 5 inch stilettos (they are pretty hot, I will admit) I have never worn high heels beside 2 inch wedges, I told her I typically wear flip flops and she says that ends now. Well here is whats gonna happen, I am gonna walk around like baby deer who just discovered her legs or I am gonna do a face plant and break my ankle...ah geez, maybe I will do a few laps around the house and practice first. We are going to the Siverado, where they have country line dancing and bootie shaking music all rolled into one...now that is my kind of distraction..

Okay my 12 hour work day and sleeping meds are saying its time for beddy-bye...nite nite

Wednesday, September 7, 2011

Day 47

So guess who deleted me from her facebook? my slutty ex-cousin. I guess she didn't want me to see her and my ex-man become Facebook Official, gross I just threw up in my mouth a little. Anyway, I guess I am just mad that she beat me to the punch. I will block her from being a 'follower' of this blog after she reads this...hey Brandi, hey girl...you suck at life...hope all is well....thanks for taking that nutjob off my hands, tell him I said hi and don't be offended if you don't get a Xmas card this year... ok, I am now 5-years-old and I have wasted way too much time on this subject....

On to the things that matter....um, well, I just watched Bachelor Pad, Brandy (my friend) and I have given this show way too many chances, we keep thinking that its going to get better, but it doesn't, but that does not stop us. I think I may open a book and read it tomorrow, my brain is a muscle and if I don't use it, it will turn to mush, so that's the new plain, prevent mush brain.

ok well I am currently in the middle of a texting convo with this dude and we are discussing life and all its glory in a deep manner...I am pretending to be all deep and philosophical, but really I am quoting lines from "How to Lose a guy in 10 Days"

its the best.
good night

Day 46

I think I totally forgot to blog yesterday, I think the fact that Labor day came and put a screeching halt to summertime and now its a high of 56 degrees here, so that is threw me off and that is my excuse.

Yesterday was good, I got to go back to work after being off for 2 days and fill everyone in on the saga that is my life. There is this one guy named, Mike D, who cracks me up, and has been added to my 20something group of guys who crack me up. As I was leaving, I happen to have two pennies in my hand and as I was walking to the door, he asked, "are you leaving me?" I took his hand and put the two pennies in his palm, and said "not without giving you my 2 cents" and walked out. :)

So I have a potential situation that I am not looking forward to dealing with, my manager has been hitting on me and Saturday he gave me his number. Now this is where corporate bars differ from privately owned bars, this is usually against the rules. Dangit! I don't want to date him and I don't want it to be awkward, because he is a cool dude, but he is my manager and no good can come from this.....oh crap I gotta go to work....more to come this evening...

Monday, September 5, 2011

day 45

Today I have decided to celebrate all the people in my life who I love. I sit back and think about all of my friends (and I have a lot just so ya know) and not one of them has lied to me, betrayed me, or deceived me and that is awesome. The only person in my life who has deceived me is my cousin and that is whack! Wow, my cousin, a person who I have become so close to, who I have always been there for completely took my trust and crushed it. I can't be associated with anyone I don't trust, trust is the foundation of any relationship and without it, all bets are off. So enough about the selfish person who I opened my life up to and with no regard for my feelings decided to ruin a bond that no one could ever understand. I have no room for selfishness in my life, so that's a wrap....

My friends and family mean the world to me and without them I have nothing, so I would like to thank ALL of you for making my life better in your own specific way.

In with the good and out with the bad.
Those are the words that Sarah and I used to say at the end of each workout when I used to train her at the gym. I miss those days. So here's is to you Sarah: In with the good and out with the bad.

I am really trying to find the funny in any situation, and I guess the funny part is that I was texting my cousin that I missed Randy and that I had so many things I wanted to say to him and the whole entire time he was sitting right next to her. Hold on here is one of the conversations I had with my cousin after he told me he wanted to take a break:


Brandi: What's wrong?"
me: just bummed
Brandi: have you talked to him?
me: nope not since I sent that text, he never responded, but I didn't expect him to. I told him I would give him space
Brandi: I'm sorry Steph.....how can I make you feel better?
me: I don't know. Have you talked to him by any chance?
Brandi: No. I mean I texted him when I got home cuz he asked me to but not other than that
me: ok, didn't know if you had and further insite
Brandi: Maybe its the divorce stuff, being so quick ya know? I don't know
me: Maybe. Well I will give him his space and see what happens
Brandi: Get back on that site and find another guy!
me: uh negative
Brandi: Why not steph? Get bucked off.....get back on!
me: I don't want any other guy :(
Brandi: All he is is a stupid guy!! There's lots of them out there!
Brandi: I love you!!
me: I love you too cousin

aaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!! I just copied that verbatim from my phone! holy crap what a crock of crap! HE WAS SITTING RIGHT NEXT TO HER when she was texting me all of that, if that is not funny I don't know what is. GEEEEZ. shocking. Get bucked off???? Really? You stole him!

Ok maybe I am still a little bitter




Sunday, September 4, 2011

Day 46, the day I start using titles

So when I started this blog, I swore I was not going to talk about whores or people who have betrayed me. I am only going to talk about the people who matter in my life. When I started this blog, I didn't think I was going to talk about my family members who like to pull Jerry Springer BS and sleep with a guy, who I thought at one point in my life, was my guy. I actaually thought, if you invited your twin cousin down from St. Louis for a fun weekend away from her own drama, that it would in fact, be a fun weekend with no drama. Little did I know that this fun weekend would cost me one cousin and the guy that I had been speaking so kindly about to all my friends.

Normally, when my twin cousin, my blood, my girl, my friend for life, tells me that the same guy I happen to be involved with the week before, may be in love with her, and this past week with him has been amazing, typically I am very happy for her. And on a typical Saturday, when my twin cousin, my blood, my family, my friend for life tells me that she is afraid that I will never speak to her again because she betrayed me, lied to me and made me feel stupid, typically, I would tell her everything will be okay. I have heard that blood is thicker than water, but is betrayal thicker than loyalty? Maybe, when you are in a family, all rules of loyalty do not apply. Maybe, certain twin cousins should get a free pass if they they think a guy is in love with her after two weeks.I think all common decency should go out the window in the name of love. And, if a guy is in love with you one second after he tells your twin cousin that he and her are a "good fit" and "everything happens for a reason" than you should absolutely take advantage of that situation.(I am sure that if you happen to have a boyfriend for the past 2 1/2 years, he will understand too). Why should people be with one person at a time? That is just silly. And why should you settle for one person, when you can have your cousin's boy too? It makes sense, it is a numbers game after all, play the odds I say. Ok then, one day I am going to start a blog that is a sounding board for the people that have done me dirty, until then, I am just gonna keep it simple and write about the people who matter in my life and who will never actually make me say the words, "hey cousin, please don't sleep with my man."

Friday, September 2, 2011

day 45

So I am sitting at my friend Aimee's house, I am watching her 2 dogs and 2 cats for the weekend. I am completely bored. I just got off of a conference call with Patti and Christine, we talk every week on speaker phone and act like I am there with them. Its so nice, but I do miss the live and in person chats, so I am gonna come down there in two weeks for a girls night out.

These dogs are named Sadie and Gracie, I don't know which is which, so I just call them Sadiegracie and hope they answer. I call the cats Grey cat and Brown cat. I don't think they care.

Earlier today I was getting Brandy's kids ready for school, it went like this:

Hey kids, pick out what you want to wear from this pile...
Jacob picked out an outfit and I asked him 3 times if he was sure it matched he said "it matches! why can't you see that?!"

ok sorry.

Jacob then asked me to tape his fingers together cause they hurt in football practice the night before, so I taped them with what I hope was not packing tape. Then I bent over to tie his shoes:

jacob: what are you doing?
me: tying your shoes
jacob: why?
me: cause I know how, why, do you know how?
jacob: why would I not know how to tie my shoes? I am almost nine!!
me: ok sorry

geez louise...tough crowd :)

Thursday, September 1, 2011

Day 44

Ok so I am feeling better, bout 78 % better give or take. I have been sitting on the couch writing a country song all afternoon. I have never attempted this before and I have written about a 1/4 of a song in a couple of hours. Check me out in TN untapping all kinds of hidden talents. I thinks it pretty good so far, I just can't come up with the tone, the first two lyrics are low and sad sounding and the chorus is upbeat and funny sounding. Put those sounds together and you have yourself a manic depressive country song.

The song is called "This fits"

I am now helping Jacob study for his Social Studies test. (Brandy had to go out of town for work, so I am playing the sick version of mary poppins) I just told Mason to go stand in the corner for pointing a gun at me and he told that I needed to set the timer first. lol. These kids crack me up.